05/09/2026
I woke up with some negative thoughts.
Anxiety-filled thoughts using the words,
"What if?"
Like, "What if I fail to do my job?"
Or, "What if certain risky investments I've made don't pan out?"
And, "What if my kids see me less than they expected me to be?"
And, "What if this never gets easier?"
And this one, "What if I lose it all again and I have to move in to my mom's house?" (yes I've lost everything and had to do this and it was actually a beautiful time to reconnect with my mom and dad).
Every morning, adversarial thoughts, like these flood, my brain...until...
I get up and get uncomfortable.
And for some reason when I do that, such as get up and going to run or lift or just stretch even, I suddenly have positive thoughts.
It's funny how that works.
Sometimes I wonder if that's why Jesus ventured out into the wilderness, because it was not comfortable or convenient.
It's almost as if you have to turn on the positive switch just to stay right in the head.
It's something that you really can't afford when you're a little uncomfortable.
I guess it's human nature, self preservation, an interesting hack.
Even if you're not getting up to run or lift or stretch, maybe you get up to clean something, organize something, or do something productive that takes you out of your brain into living in the present.
It's an experience I'm learning on this journey.
I'm 100% convinced that the positive thoughts is the Holy Ghost, messages from God while I'm trying to get out of my brain doing something better than freaking out in my bed.
for those who struggle with anxiety or the
"entrepreneur dilemma" and you need a friend, reach out to me, we could chat. It will help.
A good friend of mine Jake spoke some sense into me and really open my eyes, grateful for his time and care.
Good morning.
It's a beautiful day.
